Jumped off the Band Wagon :(

Well, I am not very proud of myself, I will tell you that much.  I fell off the band wagon.  I have only exercised once in the last week and have been eating like crap!  Well tomorrow is a new day out there and I plan on using it to its full potential.  I am going to do this and get back on it!  I have too, for me, for my family and for my health!  I cannot let anything stop me, distract me or upset me because I always turn to food.

I purchased a new cook book yesterday because I don't like same old same old.  I need variety in my food otherwise I get board and go back to what it is I really want - junk!  So I needed a recipe book and I found what I think to be a great one! 

I haven't yet made a receipe from it yet but I will be soon.  It looks so good.  The book tells you how many calories, carbs, sodium (which I have found that when I read food labels now that is the first thing I look at and somethings I can't believe I was eating that WOW)

There is also a Hungry Girl website where you can get free receipe e-mails.
http://www.hungry-girl.com/   Well I am hoping that this will help me with the variety thing. We will see shortly right!?  Only 20 more days till weigh in and I have a long way to go!  Hope I can do this without anymore mistakes.  I cannot be a failure at this again!

Bri

Weigh-In day!

Hi everyone,  Just wanting to let everyone know that today was weigh in day for me and I can't be anymore happier and prouder of myself.  I felt like they do on the biggest loser!  I will let the numbers speak for themselves:

Weight:  224 (that's 6 lbs I lost!!!!!!!) WOHOOOOO!!!
Arm: 14.5" (.5" off)
Chest: 44.5 (1.5" off)
Waist: 38" (1" off)
Abs: 45" (3" off)
Hips: 47" (2" off)
Thighs: 27.5" (.5" off)

Total I lost 8.5"  YAY!!!!!!  :)

I am so happy and feel so good to know that it is coming off.  Next weighin is February 19.

Well I have to go do my schoolwork now.  For those of you who think of giving up - DON"T this is the best feeling ever!

Bri

Weekend #2

I find that the weekends of any diet are always the hardest.  Last weekend I did horibally (not sure of spelling - sorry)   This weekend I think I am doing 95% better than last. 

I want to share a picture with you of one of my lunches.  It looked so delicious that I had to snap a picture.

Here it is:

 It is 1 cup of 1% or 2% cottage cheese
1 whole cut up tomato
1 half of a whole wheat cinimmon rasin english muffin
1 cup of snow peas
and 1 sliced apple.

Looks good hey?

Bri


The Weekend

I have struggled alot in the last few days.  Being at home with the fridge always in my face, is so hard.  I am not always craving the bad stuff, sometimes I just want to eat and anything will do, even the good stuff.  Today is Sunday and I am going to try so hard to stay on top of it. 

Today is a new day. 

Bri

Why this time?

People have asked me “What is different about this time?  What makes you think it is going to work this time?” 

Well here is my answer:

In the past I have always thought of myself as not as fat as what others see.  I looked at myself in the mirror and think “oh I don’t look that heavy” but it was just recently I took a long hard look in the mirror and saw what others see and I now see it every time.  I honestly can’t believe I let myself get to be this big.  It is utterly disgusting, if you ask me and I am sure some people out there will agree. 

I have just set it in my mind that I need to do this for me and no-one else!  I want to be able to run after my son, I want to fit into that size 29 jeans I used to wear 10 years ago, I want to be healthy when I have my second child, I want my husband to be proud of me.  This is for me, not for anyone else.  I am the leader of this mission and no on will tell me different.  No one will hold my hand, I have to want to do this and I DO!

Food is my addiction and it takes a lot for me to admit that!  I am addicted to food and pop.  For those of you who did not know this next thing about me I am sorry to tell you now, but I smoked for years and quit cold turkey once my son was born.  When I did that it was hard and I struggled with it for a long time and still do but I over came it and I will with this as well.  The first few weeks, even months are going to be extremely difficult but this is something I need to do.  I keep telling myself that I can’t get any heavier and my son needs his mother.  This fat on my body is making me lazy and depressed and flat out bitchy.  Three things I don’t like about myself. 

I have issues eating while watching TV, I like to snack.  My good friend told me that she knits while watching TV.  I don’t know how to knit (would love to know how) but I know how to crochet and I have an abundance supply of wool (because I am also a shopaholic) on hand, so I am going to be making dishcloths while I watch TV – keeping my hands busy.

I have gone to the gym the last 3 days.  I am not going today and I feel a little guilty about that but I can only push myself so far.  I am going to jump on my Wii tonight instead and do a few games and return to the gym tomorrow morning.   

My two week diet challenge also started today (even though I sort of started it yesterday) it is going good so far.  I haven’t had any pop yet today.  The trainer at the gym did allow me to have 1/3 cup of pop a day until I am unable to go without but I am trying to not have any all together.)

I am VERY proud of myself for this, even if there are those out there that are not. For those that aren’t - I am not sorry!  I have come along way to make these decisions in my life and I have a very long journey ahead of me.  Thanks to all of those who have my back and will support me along the way.  

Bri

This is the beginning of my new life!

Dear Reader!

This is the first of many posts.  This blog is of me and my thoughts and ambitions.  Also, my journal - to help me with my weightloss and to help me clear my head.

I am a wife, a mother, a full-time career woman, and a crafter.  I am 230 lbs and have been struggling with my weight all my life but this is the largest I have ever been!  I can't believe that I  let it get to this.  I have recenlty undergone surgery to remove my galbladder, which I have to say, for all of you who are reading this, please stay away from the grease.  If I knew how it would be back then I would have stopped along time ago. 

I will be posting my goals short term and long term here on everything in my life. 

Long Term Weight Loss:   to be 130 lbs

Short Term Weight Loss Goal:  to lose 10 lbs by January 31, 2011.


Measurement Time....

Wegith: 230lbs
Waist: 39"
Arm: 15"
Chest: 46"
Abs: 48"
Hips: 49"
Thighs: 28"
WOW  Thats alot. 
I have started going to the gym and the lady there is a huge motivator.  This is what I need to help me, she got me pumped yesterday and I love it!

I have HUGE challenges awaiting me in this journey but I am exciting to do them.

Challenege #1:  To stop drinking pop and drink 6 - 8 glasses of water.
Challenege #2:  Stop taking the elevator at work and use the stairs.
Challenege #3:  Go to the gym Monday to Friday for at least 45 mins.
Challenege #4:  Not to eat after 8 pm.
THERE ARE NO EXCUSES - JUST DO IT ALREADY! 

Well so long old me and I can't wait to see you in the end!

Bri